I should be napping...

It’s 1pm and I was awake from 12:47 until around 4 something this morning. Apparently my stillness did not register on my Fitbit as it recorded one fantastic night of sleep. We are going to have to disagree on this one. I am fine when the Fitbit shorts me a couple of running miles, but to over credit me on sleep. I don’t want the extra credit. It was a waste of time. I didn’t use the awake time to do anything but scour the internet, including Facebook where I learn nothing except that other people are more enthused about posting and sharing a image of life that may or may not be the whole truth. I didn’t crack open a book or my Kindle (which is better for night reading due to two littles in my bed, because a lamp would be a big no-no). I did tip a Lyft driver after the 72 hours, which is a bit of a process, but I was pretty annoyed with myself for not doing it the night of the birthday party, and I am blaming the booze and having to get up to run the next morning. Who gets up at 7am on a Saturday to run? Lots of people. But it’s usually best to skip the martinis. However, they were smallish because we had them at the Crater Lake Distillery tasting room where you can be served 5 drinks before you are cut off. No worries, we didn’t have 5. With the Lyft driver tipped, I tried to go back to sleep.

But I got a flu shot yesterday and my arm hurt like hell. No position was working for me. More internet…(insert giant eye roll), so unproductive. If it had been college, I would have sat on my kitchen counter and read a book until I finished it or it was time for class. I could have been so much more productive in college.

Do you ever just accept where you are enjoy it? This one is difficult for me. I want to be present and in the moment but there is always something else brewing or needing cleaned or folded and the moment passes and I remind myself that the next opportunity is a good time to focus and be all in. I keep setting a carrot out and I chase it like a cat after it’s own tail. I just something that is credited to Brene Brown about burning out, here it is: If you don't want to burn out, stop living like you're on fire.

It’s such a good reminder to set goals, check things off your to-do list and schedule some downtime. I am starting to question how I spend my downtime. What do you do to help you unwind and recharge?

While I am terrible at napping, I do enjoy thinking about how to better my time usage. I am looking forward to some time in the mountains, it’s a place for me to recharge. But I am also looking for other ways to incorporate into my life.